Monday, September 3, 2007
went to c my grandpa today. when we got dere and saw the state my grandpa is in, my mood went down. the feeling was so intense. he could barely walk stably and he cant talk sensibly anymore. my mum asked him if he still remember his children and grandchildren. he recalled every of his children. but dere's 1 thing dat really made my heart sank and i swear i will be gracious. out of so many grandchildren dat he's got, he only remembered 3 of us (my 2 bros and i). yes, we are the closest to him bcos we used to stay overnight everywk at his hse when we are small. dat time my uncle was still single and he brought us out to play. i could no longer hold my tears. it's gathering and overflowing. i excused myself from everyone and made my way outside, saying i wanna buy a drink. this is my 2nd time i cried wif emotion..
he dunno where he lives now. now he can only remember those poor, but yet happy and lively days in the past. grandpa.. are u suffering?
'the past is good, just think about the past. the present doesn't exist'
i think this will do him good if he's unaware of things in the present. i dun wan him to stress over his childrens and himself now.
wat have become of my 3 uncles?! i know dat that they are busy in their work and solving family & financial problems. wat they are, or are not doing now is equivalent to shunning their parent. grandpa is currently in elders' home. the once filial uncles who devoted time in looking after their father, are now more concerned about their own affairs after their marriage/divorce. hoping dat when he grows up old, his children will be able to take care of him (undoubtedly, dat's the responsibility of all).
---9:27 PM---
